Analise D Mello MBBS, MS obgyn, DNB

In continuation of my last week’s reflection and my ongoing frustration at the workplace, I had a major problem with being treated unfairly at my residency program. I was saddened that my chances at procedures and academics were unequal and way lesser than others around, making me feel my training has been incomplete and inadequate.

While I bottled the frustration up into myself and ignored the injustice, one final nail in that coffin led me to lose my frustration and vent it all out. Not only was it a surprise to everyone—no one seemed to care either. I was told, “You should have asked about this earlier.” While that just proves extremely poor leadership skills and makes me realize how afraid I was of the repercussions of asking that I sat silent till the end of my course.

What father among you would hand his son a snake
when he asks for a fish?
Or hand him a scorpion when he asks for an egg?
If you, then, who are wicked,
know how to give good gifts to your children,
how much more will the Father in heaven give the Holy Spirit
to those who ask him?“

Today’s Gospel resonated with my current scenario—why didn’t I ask? I did. Many months ago I did, and I was denied and rebuked for even asking about a change in schedule, so I told myself I don’t need to ask. And I continued my work—day in and day out! I worked my hardest, and it took such a toll on my physical and mental health that some days I contemplated not attempting my exams at the end of this year!

I even stopped trying when coworkers and seniors suggested I do ask the bosses about the situation. But I was stubborn and afraid and kept silent with a facade of strength and happiness, but inside me I was sad and lonely, trying to figure out what I did wrong that I was being ignored and I wasn’t being considered for anything.

But unlike humans, Jesus is patient and kind and with His arms open wants us to be swept off our feet to the Lord for blessings and comfort! But yet we need to ask the Lord, even for tiny details—we need to have faith and patience so that we have some hope in our lives.

Don’t let it get too late like me, but try to be patient and keep persistently asking… God will give!

About the Author

Hello! I’m Dr Analise Maria D’ Mello, (MBBS, MS obgyn, DNB) from the beautiful state of Goa in India. I was born and raised in a Roman Catholic family, learning my prayers, catechism and Catholic values from my parents and grandmothers. I am currently practicing as an obstetrician and gynecologist for 3 years since my residency.

I often speak on anti-abortion to college students and married couples, and counsel distressed pregnant women with appropriate medical advice. I am part of the St Luke’s Medical Guild of Catholic Doctors in my state providing services in prisons, and Lenten and advent retreats for medical professionals and their families.